I’m sorry for having to write this and yet I’m not sorry to share because I want to be there for the next momma and daddy. I want to comfort their pain, the questioning, the what-if’s, and the where-did-we-go-wrong that comes from your children straying from God.
God reminded me of this passage the very day I wrote this blog in 2 Corinthians 1: 3-4.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.
God knew I needed that. I don’t know about you, but I’m so thankful God is compassionate and He comforts. It’s like hugging someone who just melts into your embrace verses the stiff hugger. Now don’t act like you don’t know what I’m saying. And those of you that are “stiff” huggers..why? Just why?? It’s just as awkward receiving a stiff one as it is for you to give it. Lol
Bottom line…Satan is a liar. He is out to kill, steal and destroy. John 10:10. He isn’t out to just throw a few jabs or speed bumps. He’s out for blood. He seems to have forgotten that when God is for us NOTHING can stand against us. Romans 8:31. Scripture. Scripture. Scripture. Because somedays it’s all I’ve got. I am holding on to every single last crumb I can to carry me through this next battle. Jesus will win. I happen to know the ending.
Kids…there are days you question God about your ability and how and why in the world did He choose you for this task. The reality is, it’s God’s perfect picture for us to relate to Him. He loves us enough He died for us, yet we fail and disobey Him over and over. The promise and the beauty is NOTHING will separate us from His love. Romans 8: 38-39. For that I am “eternally” grateful. Literally.
Nothing can separate us from His LOVE, not even…homosexuality. The words are hard to write. The tears are like faucets. NOTHING prepares you for the words when your child comes and tells you this. I’m sharing because it’s a reality in our life. We are choosing to love and pray through it. We are heart broken. The pain seems unbearable.
Our LOVE will never cease.
I don’t know what the future looks like only He does. I know that the Bible is truth. I know we are seeking that truth. We are begging God for help. Selfishly, I am begging God to return. He promises if we train a child in the way he should go, when he is old he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6
Sin is sin. My pride and envious ways (I wish I was ______), jealousy and, in truth, idolatry is no better or worse than the sin of homosexuality or drunkenness, adultery, or murder. The consequences may look different. The path of homosexuality could be rocky and hurtful for everyone involved, but there’s always LOVE. We will never agree with this decision. We have rules and we stand firm on what the Bible says. We love…we don’t agree. I can say for certain there are things about our lifestyle and choices that others don’t agree with. That’s the beauty and the freedom God gives us, to choose what we want and to grow towards Him however we feel best according to the scriptures. 1 Cor 6:12
Please don’t try to “fix” this. We have sought professional and pastoral help. Trust me I would do ANYTHING to change this situation. I also know that God will NEVER leave us. Duet 31:6 We also don’t need your advice right now. No offense. We need your prayers. That’s it. We don’t need your pity. We need your prayers. We don’t need your dirty looks or shame or guilt. Trust me anything negative you could say about our parenting (been there done that) or our choices I have already said to myself. We just need prayer that’s it.
I couldn’t not share…because trust me it’s the furthest thing I wanted to do. But we can’t do this without your prayers. We want to be here for the next parent(s) or even child who needs us.
I leave you with this truth if you are silently walking through battles with the enemy (NOT your child)-Ephesians 6:12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Hold on to this nugget and claim it.
3 John 1:4 I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth.
I will pray and hope for this until my final breathe or Jesus returns whichever comes first.