My emotions are all over the place. Swirling all around in a complete mess. Not even a hot mess. Just a complete an utter mess.
I am so excited. The isolation here can be killer. I will never say it enough, but God knew we would need the Wilson’s and they would need us. We are a team with so many similarities, yet just the right God mix of differences and assets. It’s truly part of our God story. I say that to say I am incredibly excited to be SURROUNDED by all my peeps for a few weeks!
I am anxious, actually. Anxious that it won’t quite feel the same. I won’t “fit” in because of the things God has allowed us to experience. Nervous that I’ll be too different. I don’t like different or do I? And that’s not to say I think I am above any of you at ALL! Promise. It’s quite opposite on “that” level. Maybe soon, or after our visit I can share with you what I’m talking about in detail. I’m too anxious to say it now
I am joyful to spend Christmas morning waking up to family, food, presents, and our dog, Aspen!! Remembering Christ’s birth and all that Mary and Joseph went through as young, married newlyweds, and expecting the best Gift the world has ever or will ever receive.
I’m sad that I won’t have enough time (in the world) to sit and sip tea with every single one of you that I want to. I hope you all get to make it to our night of sharing and other events that might involve you, because of course I should be top priority on your list!!! Cancel those plans and visits with your own families. I want you all to myself
Most of all though I am so very thankful for this opportunity to come and fill up on worship, CCF style and community, and Target and Starbucks, La Huerta, Chick-fil-A, free babysitters, and date nights! I’m thankful that God sees fit to provide for us in big things, allowing us the opportunity to come home and in small things. This is just a small thing, but shows you what I mean. Long story short. One of our boys broke the DVD drive on the computer. I was a little frustrated about it because the boys do their math program on CD’s on that computer and all the info is saved on there blah, blah, blah. Our intern had a package sent to her with an external dvd player for her laptop…which just so happen to not work for her, but was the perfect fit and timing for us! You have to know that it takes a few weeks to get things here…so the thought of someone buying her one, and then sending it was weeks before this even happened. Isn’t God good. He cares about the small things and has His name written all over them!
Who am I kidding?!?! My thankful list could go on and on. I’m thankful that I will be able pick up dinner in 10 min or less, crawl into bed and not do a spotlight check, like a prison guard searching the fence line, for mosquitos, NO MOSQUITO NET, brushing my teeth without a water bottle, (so you can relate) not driving to Little Rock for groceries, opening my laptop and getting on the internet and it being so reliable and fast I don’t have time to drive to Little Rock for groceries and back before the first page loads, and last but not last driving a REAL car again…oh wait and wearing HEELS!!! It could be worth having your iPhone ready though. Walk much?? New born calf?? The Little Mermaid when she gets her legs?? On second thought maybe I’ll stick with the flats.
Funny story, first time I went to CCPH I had on these new tall skinny wedges. (it’s basically like walking a tight rope) I walk in and there’s this edging to the sanctuary doors that I didn’t even notice apparently. Yeah, so it’s like wedge on a ledge… it has like one foot in and one foot out. There is scripture that comes to mind about not being “lukewarm.” I get it. Well, my ankle didn’t know which side it was choosing, so you see where this is going. I completely buckle almost to the floor before I pull it back together. Only, to look up and there stands a “friend.” Not like one of those friends you laugh hysterically with and ask if they just caught all that on video. I’m saying one of those acquaintances that is a fitness instructor, whose eyelashes can curl a dumbbell, who could run a marathon in skinny wedges and never “break” a sweat much less an ankle. You get my drift. Mortified. So now I’m thankful that I talked this through with you, and yes I think I will just stick to my ever faithful flats.
See you in 35 days!!!